"Unveiling My Spiritual Purpose: A Journey of Self-Discovery"

Have You Ever Wondered What Your Purpose In The Spiritual Realm Is or What Your Job Will Be In Heaven?

It took just that first deep moment with God and I knew what He had for my life.

There are people who are raised in church, people who are not, people who have been taught about God and people who have not, and then those that know of Him just by what they heard through society, the world. Though we are all different and have been influenced by different surroundings and ways of thinking, there is just one God and His children, us, are continually fighting an enemy, Satan, who wants to turn us against God as if He never existed. The evil one wants us forget and not grow in the spirit of God. That's why we must stay strong and courageous, and hold the wisdom of God close to us. Write it in and spread the word of God.

I was raised knowing God, but not walking with Him enough to dwell with Him. My mother took us to church, but finding the one where she was needing to grow was difficult. I feel that was the case for her anyways. As a kid, I knew she was raised Catholic, has a Catholic name and such, she went to Catholic School, but as an adult she didn't take us kids to Catholic churches. I remember Baptist and Church of Christ for a short bit. I invited her to a Catholic one back when I was like 18 or 19 years old. We both did not feel it there. It was weird and awkward for us. I felt the energies there were so thick, but that's another post. haha

I had many moments from early childhood that I now realize God had a hold of me. I really never was shown or taught to follow God or what to do as a kid. Should I say, I wasn't listening or hearing. I didn't know there were different religions, I didn't know anything other than there was a God and that's the end of it. I went to different churches with my friends but we didn't listen, it was gathering time, sitting and thinking about socializing and having fun with friends. Church trips, new friends, new churches, just constantly twirling in and out of them, and yet never really fully grasping why. I mean, I prayed, I went through all the motions, just like all the other good little church members, following the Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night, vacation bible school and camps, you know all those rituals we all run over and over that makes us obedient... huh? Right? Take the Sabbath and rest. Be obedient and tithe, that gets us in Heaven, right?

Yeah, not supposed to be like that. Is your purpose to meet with people and congregate, socialize 3 times or more a week? That makes you holy? I believe there is more to it than that. Looking holy and being filled with the Holy are two different things. I had found that out when I was 22 years old.

I've been in and out of Baptist churches of all sorts, Pentecostal ones for sure, New not Old, and have been to all sorts of different denomination revivals.... and..... I've also sat in a dark place...places.

The Day I Let God Into My Life for Good

Having experienced significant trauma, I learned that forgiveness is liberating. Despite growing up hearing about "God," it wasn't until I was 22 that I truly felt His presence and gained the wisdom to recognize His voice. After a period of not attending church, I returned to a Pentecostal church, the Church of God. While sitting in the pew, I occasionally felt the Holy Spirit moving within me, but one day, I experienced a profound moment of God's presence enveloping me and speaking to me. By quieting my mind and being open, I allowed God to reveal Himself to me through His words.

Before this experience, I had never gone to the front or the altar to worship God and be "slain in the spirit". (I might write an article about it soon.) I had observed others lying on the floor covered with a prayer sheet and had always been curious about it. On this particular day, I finally got to understand what it was all about.

Despite being heavily pregnant with my first child, I made my way to the front. The preacher prayed over me and gently placed his hands on my head, causing me to immediately fall to the ground. Thankfully, there were prayer warriors ready to catch those deeply moved by the spirit of God and immersed in prayer. This is how my personal conversation with God unfolded.

"God, I do not know how to pray and do not know what my purpose is here on Earth. How do I help? What do I do? I don't know the words to say in prayer. What if I'm called on in front of others and I don't know how to pray?" I proceed to ramble like normal to God. I KNOOOOW I'm in His presence. I instantly know and I've become a blubbering fool.

While wandering, I experienced an incredible sense of peace and a beautiful energy enveloping me like never before. It felt like the essence of Heaven, although I can't be certain. I sensed His presence all around me as I lay there, unable to open my eyes. I found myself rambling to God, and to my surprise, He responded. He conveyed to me, "My child, you will become a healer." Confused, I asked, "Do you mean I will lay my hands on people and pray for them? Isn't that what I do already as a prayer warrior?" His response was firm and clear, "No, you will lay your hands on others, and through your faith, they will be healed." Still not fully grasping, I questioned, "So, I won't be a prayer warrior then?" I admit, I wasn't listening very well. I then inquired about praying, to which He assured me, "I will provide you with the words. You don't need to know what to say; I understand your heart. I will give you a new language." I didn't comprehend the full meaning at that moment, but I stood up and began speaking in tongues, what the church refers to as a heavenly language. I now believe that each of us has our own unique language given by God to communicate with Him when we are in His presence. It signifies that He resides within us, waiting for us to fully accept Him. Only then can we understand our purpose on Earth and in Heaven.

Now those are the highlights of my first deep conversation with the Father, Creator. I won't share everything here, just what I feel He wants me to share with others right now.

That was the extent of what I could offer here on Earth to help others, but I must clarify something that took me time to comprehend. I do not possess the power or ability to simply touch people and cure them of all their illnesses just because they are in my presence. Can God work through me as a vessel? Absolutely! I firmly believe that! In the physical realm, I can assist you by illustrating the distinction between human medicine and God's intervention. I can guide you on how to care for yourself with God's assistance. He has mentioned that there will be occasions where I can bring about healing through prayer and unwavering faith alone. In the spiritual realm, I can reach out to you and aid in healing your soul. I can help dispel malevolent energies that afflict you, unseen to you but visible to me, and through God, I can employ my hands to heal and banish them. I have personally overcome numerous mental, physical, spiritual, and emotional challenges, which in itself may label me as a "healer," yet it does not necessarily lead others to the kingdom. Many of us possess divine gifts, but it transcends our understanding. Remember, God surpasses our knowledge. We are more than we realize. Even a tiny amount of faith, like a mustard seed, can move mountains if we have faith akin to Jesus. I urge you not to conceal your purpose due to a lack of motivation or wisdom. Seek it out. Discover it with God and take action!

Walking Our Path of Purpose

I would like to take a moment to ask you to sit with God, clear out all noise, and risk of an negative or evil energy to keep stopping you from being with God fully. Sit, ask Him what your spiritual purpose is. What are you to do here on Earth physically and spiritually. Spiritually does not mean how you get others closer to God necessarily but how you help their souls to be free of evil. That doesn't mean, if they are an addict or a criminal, or a whore, you judge them and continuously beat them with words. They heard you the first time, they just didn't listen yet.

If you haven't experienced a spiritual connection before, you might feel a bit drowsy when you first start to walk with God in deep prayer or meditation. He will reveal Himself to you and communicate with you, but you must seek Him out. Once it happens to you, you will be uplifted and will understand what I mean. It's like when a first-time mother is about to give birth and experienced moms say, "You'll know when you're in real labor and having contractions. You'll just know." It's hard to explain, but when you are in God's presence and He is speaking to you, you will just know... However, you must initiate the connection with Him first. We have free will, and He won't take control of our actions or lives just because He can. He allows us to live and make choices to fulfill our purpose. I strayed from the path that led me to a purposeful life for God, but I didn't lose it. I have returned to it. I am a healer. I used to feel ashamed because of the judgment from the world, especially from other "Christians" who condemn it as wrong or impossible just because they preach, are married to a preacher, or attend church every time the doors are open. Or they accuse you of seeking attention, that's a common one. Come on, children of God, let's not empower the enemy; he is insignificant and will meet his end. He did not create light or love, but our God did. Why do you all deny Him of that?

The important part is consistency though. You have to keep talking to God daily all day long, or you give the enemy a chance to come in and influence you. So... How do you find your purpose? or... How did you find your purpose for God?

It seems to me, that many churches believe that just preaching the bible is all that is needed. I feel many don't believe that our God is still creating disciples and prophets. The enemy comes in with a block every time someone tries to give a prophecy or show the real truth that is beyond the bible and beyond what is taught in churches. What if WE are the church? Where 2 or more are gathered makes a church. The church, I feel is inside of us, because GOD is the church not bricks that make up four walls, so what's your purpose for all of us. Even God's children, not in churches needs help, and not to get into a church somewhere, but to get to walking their path of purpose.

I don't know what all is out there, I just know what was told for me. Now over 20 years later, I'm doing my purpose. Am I late? Did I procrastinate? or.... Does God have a hold on me fully and I am in perfect timing because He makes my way?

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